Wednesday, August 24, 2016
Friday, August 19, 2016
Hunger
The Western Bar & Grill, which fortunately served
breakfast, was just opening when Darryl and his four friends rolled in, parked,
and entered. They had been hunting elk all night, without sleeping at all, and
finally decided to go to town to get some breakfast, just about the time the
sun was about to rise. The bank stood across from the Western, and the trees
beyond that; the town was still, and there weren’t more than a few cars in the
whole road.
Once they were seated in a booth, Darryl felt a tinge of
tiredness, like he would fall asleep before his breakfast even arrived. But the
waitress, Angel, brought coffee right away and the five hunters started arguing
more or less the same way they’d been arguing all night. They each had brought
different skills to the hunt; Hank knew where to find the elk, Gary knew, or
claimed to know, how to get them to go from one place to another; Pete knew how
to get the meat out of them when they were down. It turned out the little old
guy, Jimmy, didn’t know any of that, but Jimmy was able to get them out of the
deepest woods once, at about four in the morning, when all the other four were
completely lost. Darryl had brought very few skills to the hunt, but he did have a gun,
and he had the hunger for elk; he’d much rather be eating that elk right now,
than this Denver omelet that was coming to his table fresh.
But the omelet was good, and the coffee was hot and powerful,
and pretty soon Darryl was able to focus better on what each guy was saying.
They were still talking about the elk; they all had wanted to bag one, like
Darryl. The elk were known to come to town, especially in hunting season, and
Angel at one point said she thought they knew it was the only safe place at
this time of year. The elk was much larger than deer, harder to kill, far more
stubborn, but the question was, how smart was it, and did it really know what
it was doing when it stumbled from place to place? They debated for a while.
One guy they knew would kill them and only take the head, because he valued the
antlers, but not the meat, really; Darryl, however, had tasted the meat, wanted
the meat, and valued it, in fact, was hungry for it even on top of this omelet
breakfast, and barely able to concentrate as he was.
The Western Bar & Grill had an elk trophy on the wall;
it wasn’t looking directly at the five men, but Darryl felt that when he looked
at it suddenly, perhaps its eyes were turned his way. That’s ridiculous, he
thought, it was dead, there was no
way it could be looking at him, or anyone else, it was just a head on the wall.
But he remembered one time when he’d brought his young daughter to this very
room, for dinner, and she’d become upset that there would be an elk head on the
wall, and started asking him all kinds of questions about how it had got there.
He actually hunted much less now that she was older, and was never quite able
to tell her the whole story, but as an avid hunter with the opportunity to go
out with these four friends, he’d had to take them up on it, and go out Dry
Canyon together.
Now they got into an argument about where they had been, and
in fact, on Hank’s advice, they had gone out Dry Canyon as far as they could
drive, and had set out on foot through the woods. Hank was the leader, so
everyone was willing to follow his advice for a while; they had circled around
a bit, got lost, gone in the wrong direction a ways, and finally figured out
how to get back to the canyon and back to the truck they had taken. Now, in the
restaurant, they began arguing about whether they had done the right thing. At
each point in the night, even at 4 am, in the pitch black darkness of the
forest, they had to make these decisions together, all five of them. Now, in
the process of reliving them, the same disagreements came up. Hank was kind of
a showman. He did it for his image of himself, leading his buddies into the
forest and bringing back an elk to brag about. But he wasn’t necessarily right
about Dry Canyon; much of his brash confidence with the landscape was
unfounded. He repeatedly had to defend his decisions against the challenges of
guys who also felt they knew the place.
In fact, Jimmy, for one, was becoming a little agitated. You
could say whatever you wanted about the elk themselves; he knew elk, he hunted
elk, but he knew he wasn’t an expert. But when you started talking about where things had gone wrong, Jimmy knew
that. He knew north from south, he knew a half mile from three-quarters of a
mile. It’s like he knew every deer trail up and down every mountain in the
forest. And in fact, he probably did. You could argue with him on these
details, but you couldn’t win. Darryl knew that without Jimmy, they might not
have made it back nearly so easily. So when Jimmy started in about some
decision they’d made, way back at some god-forsaken intersection of path and
deer-trail, on the side of some mountain out by Dry Canyon, Jimmy was probably
right.
Darryl sipped his coffee and remembered the moment.
Thousands of stars had covered them as they leaned on their guns and argued,
and Darryl had gotten the feeling that if they could just shut up they could hear the elk tromping about; that elk
had probably known they were coming a mile away. The point was to find a place
where the wind was just right, where the elk couldn’t smell the people,
preferably up a little, and get real quiet and wait. But in fact they had never
found that place, because they could never agree on where the elk were or where
they were going. In the middle of the night, they were still arguing, instead
of sitting there silently, waiting for a sure kill. Darryl didn’t know that
much about hunting, but he knew that much: that if they were still walking,
they weren’t going to get anything.
Angel came back around, and kept filling up their coffees
and teasing them about not shooting anything; perhaps they could buy some meat
from her husband, she said, and each take it home, and pretend they’d shot it themselves.
Deep down, Darryl thought that was a good idea, because he no longer cared
about actually shooting the darn thing, he just wanted to eat some. He was
still a little delirious from lack of sleep, but fortunately it was a weekend,
and nobody was in a hurry to get anywhere, except maybe Jimmy, who had some
kind of weekend job as a guide.
But as they paid their bill and walked out of
the Western Bar & Grill, into the morning sun, there was an enormous elk,
standing out in the middle of downtown, right in front of the bank, watching
them impassively. He had broad shoulders and an enormous rack; to some degree,
he was what each of them had been seeing or imagining all night.
You couldn’t shoot him here; he was right in front of the
police station, and Ed, the town cop, was just getting to work. Just like Angel
said, he knew he was safe, right in the center of town, and he was just looking
at them as if to challenge them, or perhaps to mock them. Perhaps he’d followed
their truck all the way back from Dry Canyon, or just knew where they were, and
where to wait to get a good clear look at them.
Hank was the most offended, and even said something to the
elk, as he took it as kind of an affront to all his effort, and felt that, in a personal way, this elk was making him look bad. Jimmy grumbled under his breath,
in a hurry to get in the truck and get out of there; to him it was a practical
matter. Darryl smiled, watching Hank almost walk over and grab the thing by its
antlers. But the image of the elk danced in his eyes, as he was still not sure
he was entirely awake. The taste of elk was stronger than ever in his
imagination, but it was going to have to wait for another day.
The morning sun was now coming over the trees, and people
were beginning to come to town for various reasons, noticing the elk in the
process. It wasn’t that big as news; most of them had seen an elk downtown
before. This one was like most elk; he didn’t much want to move, but finally was
persuaded to lope off, when Angel herself came out with a pan and a big spoon
to bang it with, practically right in his ear. He had huge antlers that took up
a lot of room and pointed toward the sky pretty much no matter how he turned
his head. He glanced at the bank, and took a last look at the five hunters, as if he’d remember their
faces, and come back for them later; then, he headed out of town toward the
woods.
In the truck now, the men went their separate ways, and when Darryl got home, he told his
wife that he’d seen one, but wasn’t able to shoot anything. It’s just as well,
she said, since she'd have been unwilling to cook it, if he had.
8-17-2016
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